Copy and pasted from here. It is 100% true, and I hope it explains my frequent absences the last 6 months, and possibly a few angry responses to people I have made in the forums. I apologise for those, and I hope you know they are out of character. A few of you know some of the details, none of you know all of them.

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I don't want to speak ill of my father. When I was growing up he was my best friend, my role model, and the one person in this world I most wanted to be like. We spent hours watching sport together, chatting together about everything and anything. I thought he was the best Dad in the world. He supported me through school, helped me when I was struggling with something, or upset about something, and was the driving force behind where I am today. Some would say he pushed me, I would say he was proud of me and wanted me to go as far as I could, and I want to think I have made him proud.

As the years went by he spent less and less time at home. I knew he was driven by his work, he was immensely proud of the work he did (a cancer researcher, who in his latter years was head of biology at UCL, and now has 5 separate drugs in clinical trials for various cancer types), and he travelled a great deal for that work. I didn't question it.

When I was 16 (7 years ago now) I discovered he was having an affair. I don't know if he wanted me to find out, he gave me his email password so that I could use his account, back in the days I didn't use the internet and had no email address. I stumbled across an email addressed to him from a woman I didn't recognise, and curious about the title I opened it.

We never talked about it, and I even convinced myself that he was in the right. My Mum can be hard to live with at times, and I thought maybe he deserved a chance with someone else. I was always much closer to my Dad than my Mum, and I simply couldn't bring myself to blame him. I didn't get chance to resent him for not being at home as I left for university at 18, to Bath, the same place he and my Mum had studied. I didn't know if my Mum knew, or my younger sister, and we simply never spoke of it.

On the 23rd of May this year my Dad died of a heart attack, with no warning, at the age of 49. He was in good shape, didn't smoke, hardly drank, and had a reasonable diet. The pathology report said it was simply bad luck, though possibly stress had been a factor. There was also a genetic link that may also affect me.

After 6 years of hiding his secrets I had a chat with my Mum. The affair had been going on for 10 years, and she had known about it from the start. The other woman was his secretary, and they had been living together for some time. My Mum had hidden it from us for that entire time, not knowing that I knew (and my sister had also found out independently 3 years ago). Every day, once we had gone to school, she would sit at home and cry her eyes out. The only thing stopping her from throwing him out was us, and I guess the hope that he would someday come around and come back to us.

His other woman had a family of her own, two kids who are now 10 and 8 from a previous relationship. I find it very hard thinking that they saw my Dad more than we did, and got what I used to have, and could have still had. I'm sure he loved us, but it wasn't a love I was willing to share.

He had lied to us, to the other woman, and to work for that entire time, sometimes for no reason at all. He even told my Mum that he had told us about his affair, which he never did, and made her even more distraught. My fathers family is deeply religious (something my Mum's side very much isn't), and his Dad (my grandfather) would never have spoken to him again had he known. When my grandfather passed away last year my father tried to arrange a meeting with his other woman and my Nan. She threw him out. For the last year of his life my Dad had been telling my Nan that he wanted to move back to Devon to look after her, his other woman that he wanted to move to Devon with her, and my Mum that he wanted to move there with her, apparently reconciling his differences, or so my Mum thought. I don't know if he was just confused, or whether he had grown so used to lying that he didn't know when to stop.

I loved my Dad, and it hurts me deeply to think that I didn't really know him at all. I never would have thought he could lie to us, or hurt us the way he did. He had a whole other personality that I never knew existed. The man I knew was the best father in the world, and I want to remember him like that. I regret not confronting him about everything, and I regret not talking to my Mum- we are now closer than we have ever been thanks to all of this, and I can only imagine the pain she has been through all these years protecting myself and my sister.

He was my role model. I don't want to be like him anymore.

Not going to be here for a while (at least a few weeks, maybe longer).

A long time since I posted anything here, so I thought I'd give a brief update on life and things...

I'm still at university not failing (yeah, I'm amazed as well...). In fact I now have just two more months of student life left before I set out into the big wide world. I've already committed to staying in Bath again next year though, so all I need to do now is find a job. It probably won't be anything I intend to stay doing, but I need a year to sit back and relax a bit after almost 20 years of education! After that who knows?

I'm still off to Indonesia in the Summer- how long for is dependent on a medical next week. If I pass (it will basically come down to my asthma, which is extremely mild), then I'll be able to dive while I am there, and therefore stay 4 weeks longer. Otherwise it will just be 4 weeks in the jungle, which is still pretty awesome. I should be fine for the diving I think, but *fingers crossed* anyway.

And far and away the most important thing in my life at the moment is Emma (who I briefly mentioned in my last post). Our relationship is going from strength to strength, despite the distance, so all you will get out of me at the moment is smiles =D. Once again I've landed on my feet and found someone really amazing.

Also...

Come on you GREENS!

Ugh, I'm sick of seeing all that text in my profile, and there is no way I'll ever get around to finishing it anyway, so time for a new post :)

So I'm back at university, and indeed have been for a full month now. Life is going pretty well, but being a final year student (studying biology) I have absolutely no free time whatsoever. Which would be why I'm not about on NG too much these days :(. I do read through a few threads from time to time though, so don't think I'm away completely, I'm watching you...

If that wasn't enough of a drain on my time I'm also playing water polo for the university again, my second season in the team. We've got off to a good start with a win last week, so the season is looking up. Training is most nights of the week though, so not as much time for consumption of alcoholic beverages as I would like! (note, no fines for me there- check out 'gentleman's consumption laws' if confused)

And to top it all off I'm seeing a young lady from near Inverness in Scotland :) (though she is English originally, she made it quite clear I should point that out...). The distance is a pain admittedly, but that means when we do see each other it is all the better. Plus it only costs £20 to fly from Inverness to Bristol, bargain!

Which all adds up to no NG time, but then that is hardly the end of the world. I'll be around every now and again :)

Off to Gran Canaria (in the Canary Islands) tomorrow, until next Sunday. Plenty of lazing around on beaches and drinking awaits =D

Yeah, next Tuesday (the 31st) I will be leaving sunny Colorado for the large puddle that is England. As my parents are flying out to here on Wednesday to help me get my stuff back (and for a bit of tourism), I thought I'd write this now while I have chance.

My NG time is going to be seriously reduced, probably for the best given how much time I have spent on here the last 10 months. The connection at my parents house is dreadful, and I'll be busy 99% of the time anyway.

Then it will be back to University at the end of September (just in time to get drunk for my 22nd birthday on the 30th), and I'll have a better connection, so I'll be around more, depending how much work I have to do. Might actually have to do something besides getting drunk for my final year...

So just a little heads up in case anyone misses me (as if!).

Hi there! First up what the hell are you doing in my profile, and how on Earth did you find your way here? Anyway, you are here now, so you may as well go on reading, right? And a few comments would be nice, just to see who is so lost that they found themselves in this backwater of Newgrounds!

So this is redesign day! I guess my line of jokes about how this day would never come will have to be put to rest- I'm sure nobody is complaining! A few thoughts upon the new features, and a couple of small reminders for myself of how things are on this day, as no doubt in a few months the novelty will have worn off and it will just feel like the home from home Newgrounds has always been for me.

As of yesterday I was a level 14, with that God awful rusty pipe- that I will not miss, and a VP of just over 10. Today I am a level 26, with a weird crooked knife thing, and a VP of 15.53 (EDIT- that was a bug, I'm now down to 10.87, though that is still more than before)! Happy days indeed!

Everything looks shiny and new, even though it was slow for a while (hey look, my typing is keeping up on screen now!). Lots of people are excited about the new levels, while others are moaning about the bugs. You'd think after 10 months of waiting for this they could at least wait a few more days for the glitches to be ironed out!

Personally I love Bytesize- that has made me visit the front page for the first time in years! Also the new portal features, with the new flash player and no new windows for reviews etc is fantastic. It makes the whole experience so much more streamlined.

I'm sure I'll stumble across more new things as I explore!

As I have no talent with flash, audio, or art...

I'm currently writing a new BBS story for the NG Mafia, but once this short series is completed I fully intend to start a story thread in General and include volunteers from the BBS. That should be in a month or so if all goes to plan, and as a spur of the moment thing, if you comment here that you want to take part you'll get a better role. Yeah, no cross dressing serial rapist for you! Feel free to give me story ideas as well- right now I am thinking of setting it in a historical period, so give me some suggestions!

My previous stories can also be found HERE should you be curious.

Honestly I have very little else to say, and the character count available for this is enormous! I'll be moving back to the UK (having spent a year in Colorado) in two weeks time (31st July), so my NG time will be reduced for a while. Just a heads up for anyone that might care!